Daily Adventures

Lessons learned from my failed plans

“Truth is, You know what tomorrow brings

There’s not a day ahead You have not seen

So, in all things be my life and breath 

I want what You want Lord and nothing less”

– Lauren Daigle, “Trust In You”

I’m a planner. That is a fact. I have checklists and calendars and sticky notes galore. My physical planner has colors and pictures and, yes, more sticky notes. But I still cannot seem to get things together. My to-do lists are never complete, I forget things a lot, and I resolve to “doing better tomorrow”. I cannot be alone in this struggle. There has to be others out there too. So what do we do? Do we continue the monotonous cycle that runs us ragged? I keep find myself asking that there has to be more to this. There has to be something I can do that will not leave me frustrated at the end of the day and unmotivated to do anything throughout the day. Then, right there in the middle of my frustration is the whisper in my ear, I really must be going crazy; then comes the pull on my heart. “Give it to me!” I’ve heard this before and I cry out, “but I have given it to you!” The struggle in my heart continues.

“Not really… I want it all.”

“But I can handle this day, this hour.”

“You need me more than you know… do you trust me?”

“What kind of question is that?!?! You know I trust you.”

“Then give it to me.”

“But…”

“No buts!! Give me your every day!! Give me the next minute, the next hour, the next day. Let me direct your next step. Let me choreograph your dance.”

“It’s so hard.”

“I will give you strength. Do you trust me?”

“Yes, Lord. I trust you, but I need your strength and your peace to fill my need to have control.”

That’s what it comes down to. I need to feel that I’m in control. That I’m doing what I’m supposed to, but really I’m just walking in a circle expecting to end up in a different location. God cares about the everyday and the mundane aspects of our lives. He wants us to talk to him about every step we take, and more importantly, he wants to direct that step. But in order to do that we have to give up. We have to stop trying to run ourselves ragged with our to-do lists and perfectly planned days, and literally hand over our schedule to Him. This is for everything from doing our workout to how we spend that big bonus, from doing the dishes to responding to our kids’ mistakes. Every day, every step is a prayer “God what’s next?” When we can trust God with the everyday, He will bless our future.

Now I’m sure you are thinking, “Wow!! This is really great stuff!!” and you are so right, but I also feel that you could be asking, “Really… it sounds great, but how is this done in real life?” I know this because I’m right there with you. I wish there was a magic pill or some fairy dust that we could sprinkle and magically we just hand it all over, but that’s not faith. “Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.” (Hebrews 11:1, NLT) I can make plans all day long, but quite often those plans change. On the other hand, God promised that He has a plan for us (Jeremiah 29:11), He will give us rest (Matthew 11:28-29), He give us power and strength (Isaiah 40:29-31), He will give us everything we need (Philippians 4:19), He gives us victory (Romans 8:37-39), and He will give us peace (John 14:27). I don’t know about you but rather than make plans, I want to have faith in God’s promises. I want to trust him with every step and I know I’m going to struggle to take control back. So, here is my prayer, “Dear God, this day, this hour, this second, I hand to you. What do you want me with? Direct me and help me to not be so stubborn when it comes to trusting you.” 

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